4-12-17
Not in the best "space" these days. Too much going on. Tired all the time. Well, hell, I'm working 3 jobs. Sure, one is only a few hours a week but it consumes my thoughts sometimes. Then, yesterday, Xander's track meets started. I was so dreading it. The drive to Forest Lake, the fact that girlfriend might be there, chilly windy day. It ended up the way I wanted, but it didn't feel good (didn't go, ex dropped off).
I need to get my health insurance done and get back to Hansen, get back on bupropion. Get the loose ends of Mom's estate finished. Have no idea how I'm going to explain to Tim. He probably has figured out I'm nuts at times.
Looking forward to puppy but need to find the time to get ready!
Need to keep exploring why I feel so unsatisfied/unfulfilled with my life, and what I can do about it now and looking forward. A bucket list, perhaps. A vision board (white board at WM?).
Although I'm not getting the weekend off at WM, it's the ex's year for Easter weekend. He texts me that I "can have Fri and Sat nights"; I will be responding "Thanks, but no thanks" without the tone (maybe).